the glass on shelf

a young woman entered an antique shop.

the owner greets her, like usual. "new thing came today. it is glass bottle. on the shelf there."

it's just an ordinary looking clear bottle. small, not bigger than the size of her palm.




the young woman asks," it's just an ordinary bottle. what makes it can be sold in this antique shop?"

the owner smiled. "true, it's just an ordinary bottle. but the bottle was from many years before, ages, but still not broken. that's why the bottle is here, on the shelf in antique shop."

the young woman innocently replied, "o0h. so there is actually a value for being not broken."

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people, there is a value for being not broken.
though others or you yourself dont think much of your self,
there is actually a value in you, provided that you know that you're doing the right thing.
maybe people cant see it, but He is the best judge of all.
drag our feet, no matter how slow we are. but just dont break our selves.
pull ourselves together, till we reach the jannah.


quoted from Tsure ga Utsu ni Narimashite. 23 dec 2011.

旅 (tabi).

def: journey.

1 jan 2012, 11.15am (mlys time) marks the end of my very first long journey.


21st dec, 11.30 pm : arrived in klia from jakarta.
22nd dec 2011, 7.30 pm: depart from klia- singapore- munich.
23rd dec 2011, 7.35 am: arrived in manchester airport. trains to ambleside, lake district.
24th dec 2011, 8.45 pm: arrived in london.
27th dec 2011, 7.35 pm: trains london- holyhead. ferry to dublin
30th dec 2011, 10.15 pm: dublin- manchester
31th dec 2011, 8.55 am: manchester- munich- singapore.
1st jan 2012, 11.15 am: arrived. klia.

the decision was made less than a month from the starting day. subhanallah, many reactions i got when i break the news to people.

reaction i:

"parents awak pegi skali tak?"
me: tak.
"pecaya betul yeh parents awak kat awak.pergi berdua je dengan adik."
me: o0h. betul jugak eh. (terdiam. sebab baru terfikir pasal trust dari mak ayah. terdiam panjang lagi. sebab bila org percayakan kita, ada amanah dan tanggungjawab di situ).

reaction ii:

"wahhh. boleh la kita buat gathering T***** sedunia~!"
"(and many other yeays n setujuss from the conference)"

reaction iii:

"bashu, apa hadaf awak? awak kena letak hadaf. nanti bolehla kami bantu mana2 yg dapat"


soalan paling banyak saya dapat masa 1st day di sana: "awak tak jetlag ke? kenapa macam tak penat?"

(mungkin hati yg berbunga + himmah yg tersiram kembali berjaya mengatasi kesuraman winter + jetlag yg tipikal pd org yg travel merentas longitude.atau mungkin saya dah tidoq banyak sgt dlm flight smpai tak ngantuk dah :P)

referring to this post, mungkin saya patut buat revision pada post itu, sebab subhanallah, saya dapat sesuatu yg sangat sangat berharga di situ, yang saya rasa Allah memang sengaja meletakkan saya dalam kondisi itu, dengan perasaan itu, supaya saya betul-betul nampak apa tarbiyah yg Dia nak saya dapat. berkaca-kaca jugakla mata saya ni walaupun tak masuk habuk.

nak sampai dublin pun sgt banyak dugaan.
allah hijab mata kami, allah ubah plan kami, diri yg hampir putus asa & nak tido je taknak fikir apa dah, kondisi yg mencekik (people, duit, waktu yg suntuk), dan wallahua'lam lagi.
takut, seolah-olah Dia tak izinkan.

subhanallah, lagi besar tarbiyah di situ.
saya jumpa macam2 di bumi dabelin (abaikan ejaan saya. Kami memang suka eja mcm ni ^^). saya rasa macam2 di bumi dabelin. saya kutip macam2 di bumi dabelin insyaallah.
ada orang czech, ada orang Oz, ada orang UK.
kalau antunna risau pasai hak yg tak tertunai ke atas saya, jangan risau. sebab bagi saya, seorang daie itu adalah seorang yg mampu memanipulasikan kondisi, sehingga kondisi itu nanti yg akan menyokong apa yg dibawa/diniatkan. daie itu adalah orang yang mampu mencari hikmah, macam yg nabi suruh ;)


esok perlu pulang ke jakarta.
lusa kelas mula.

jazakumullahu khairan katseera kpd semua yg saya sempat jumpa. kpd yg menyumbang macam2. kpd yg berdoa. kpd yg berkata-kata. kpd yg mengirim pesan. kpd yg membuat mata saya berkaca-kaca. kpd Dia yg memberi kekuatan dan perlindungan. anda semua adalah watak-watak dalam cerita saya ^_^

moga terus tsabat, seperti gelas antik itu :)

lake district. sdg tunggu seseorg.

manchester

london

dublin

munich yg snowy

wavelength

have you ever been with people who do not have the same wavelength with you?
you knew it only when your heart screams at you,
that it does not want to be there,
no matter how great the place is,
no matter how 'fun' your logical mind says it is.

instead, you just want to run your feet
to the place which you know where the people of the same wavelength are,
despite how short the time you spend together with them, it feels like you've known them forever.
where you know that you can talk about something that's the true realism.
where you know it's always been the place where your soul is truly belongs.

have you ever feel it?


smoga allah terus beri kekuatan.



p/s: tak sabar nk jumpa tigers comel sedunia di pulau seberang nanti :)

struck =.=

kalau murabbi dapat (fikrah) 50sen, mutarabbi mungkin dapat 1 sen je.
paling banyak pun mungkin 25 sen.


kalau murabbi lari (dari tarbiyah) 2 langkah, mutarabbi mungkin sampai 2 kilometer.


kalau murabbi buat (jahiliyah) sikit, mutarabbi mungkin akan jauuh lebih banyak.


(quoted: daieah malaya ^^ )

being left behind?

statements di atas adalah utk reflection ye. bukan menidakkan bahawa mutarabbi tidak akan lebih baik dari murabbi (itu yg sangat baik utk dicapai), tapi untuk refleksi kepada semua yg clarify diri sebagai daie + daieah, so that kita tidak menuding jari + pening + keciwa, sebab bila recheck balik, mana mungkin akar @ batang pokok yg rapuh, sakit, berkulat-kulat mampu utk menghasilkan daun2 + buah2 + ranting2 yg subur dan kuat.

Up on the Hills

I arise and went, but not to Innisfree.

Up on the hills,

I hear the river’s streaming, gushing between rocks.

I hear the crickets sing,

Birds chirping,

Wind’s gushing,

The trees swayed. Leaves stirred.

Goats calling for attention, chicken clucks.

I sense the clearness of air,

The scent of pine trees,

the aroma of afternoon cooking,

the earthiness of barns,

the scent of light sprinkles from the sky,

the dampness of grass.

I see standing still mountains from afar,

Fairytale-like waterfalls and mossy rocks,

Clouds of cumulus making their way from east to west,

the crimson setting sun at the edge of horizon.

I see rattan-weaved wall of houses,

small buildings and shops and things in the town of the valley,

smoke freeing its way from the chimney,

children cheerfully waving,

adolescents by the street strumming guitar, humming local songs.

Old folks emptying their cups of tea, by the paddy fields.

Up on the hills,

Wherever this head turns, whatever this nasal senses and these eyes look,

they see signs of the Creator,

more clearly,

where His creations were left untouched by filthy hands and dirty greed of beings.

"Corruption has appeared throughout the land and sea by [reason of] what the hands of people have earned so He may let them taste part of [the consequence of] what they have done that perhaps they will return [to righteousness]" ar-Rum: 41

While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,

I feel them in the deep heart's core.